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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Last blogged @ 10:22 AM .jpg) Current Song: True Friend Currently: Cant watch TV :'( Time: 12.40PM This song makes me so sad and happy.. Sad because these aren't my true frens... Happy because i nv thought some ppl treat me as their true frens i feel so lucky to have them as my true frens ILY gals + guys :) Haha im gona do a summary of what happened this week... Alot changed...Though i didnt knw why... But it really saddens me.... Saved quite alot this month....If the amount were to be tripled, I think i would have had enough for the iPhone alr.. Cassy sick got two days MC good lahs...TSK Monday and tues after school me kellie and zilin Went to compass played a few games In particular, Truth without the Dare... Haha....Shared alot of stuffs... And if you missed it,too bad... Everything said there and there will nv leave from our mouths to anyone else... Tuesday was a pissing day.... Raging with anger in the afternoon... Went to Orchard then go Orchard Hotel for dinner... Was quite fun but i mean still damn angry... Angry till cry...I dont knw why though... This morning had piano... Learnt a new song... Pachebel's Canon in D... Super nice song...These few weeks... Im not all into it for piano... But i still wished i'd play it like a pro! Its all elgant and stuff... Though i dont think i am considered elegant... Hahas...I never really told anyone this but i mean whats the harm? I was totally into piano bcus i'd dream tht i played it damn nice so that people will envy or appreciate the music of piano... And of course i dreamed about playing it for Derek like forever... But i never got that wish..I made that wish last birthday... Today studied about of geog... Read book and listen songs.....watched anime... He talked to me in MSN today... I feeel very bad now.. I mean i treated him damn cold... When he asked me if i had missed him i said no... I really hate it...I feel like a toy to him... Like when he's happy he would play with the toy and when he's not in the mood or busy he just discard it one side... Not caring whether its sad or happy... Or just wishing that he would give it some attension... Thats actually all im asking for... Its not like im asking him to elope with me to some other dimension or sth... I mean....its not too much to ask for right? I dont the answer..at all... I just hurts so much... But i think i did the right thing too... He asked me if i still mean sth to him... It really hit me you knw... I just was damn sad....and idk wad to say... I want to break free from this stupid misery.... I guess its harder said thn done... Starting of tml....Which is the next month... I'm gona start afresh and stop thinking of the past... Its MAY!The Month of Possibilities! Also....I bought a dress frm kellie.. The dresss is super nice... FOR a gal with super nice figure and is a size 0! I wore it make me look like a walking ball. Haha...REaLLY! Now really must jian le... I hope by June i go down by at least 5kg! -I really thought it was over...But you keep doing this to me... Why?It never occured to you tt i want it to end? I can't believe you're so heartless...I really wish it to end....But i dont want say it...I want you to end it...Because i dont want to end it..If i ever say it to you i guess i would live with regret..... --Those words that came out from your mouth...All of us heard you.. It never occured to you that the one you said that were close to was hurt? You vented your anger on me bcus sth i said those words that hurt her.. You were so protective of that person...It showed how much you care about her..How much you love her. Yet now,you are the one that causes this misery and all the crap and nonsense....Has it never occured to you to let go?I dont understand you at all..You totally became another person after you met those bitch frens of yours.I really wish you just wake up and stop letting that person to be sad.I really cant forgive you for what you've done...Because to me, my friendship and kinship is everything to me.. ---You say as if you gona die...Like everybody owes you a living...But its not like that...It just shows how spoilt you are...If you dont knw something, just ask an adult..They are wiser thn us....they have been thru more thn us.They could easily tell you right from wrong..And you are just being a mere hypocrite...Funny, since you ever said that you hate hypocrites...Turns out you are one of them too..And i also dont understand why you're acting all pityful like as if we are the ones at fault...I think its a fact that you havent changed one bit. Coming up in the month : SHOPPING AT VIVO+BUGIS, BOY-FEST! PLAYING A WHOLE LOT MORE! Current Song: None Currently: Watching TVBJ, interviewing rain...He looks horrible with the new do. Time: 8.41PM |
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