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At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.
Don't regret when i'm gone,

Friday, July 31, 2009
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Today is fel's birthday!

Happy birthday!:D

Ok school was quite slack today

but i keep getting thse headaches.idk why.

urgh annoying.

especially during maths time

couldnt do maths at all.

sibei sian.after school went to art room

i cleaned up art rm for cca.

haha tired work ok!

i swept the floor and rearrange and tidy the book shelfs.

so ah those art students ah!when you see the books ah!its cus of me ah!

ALL MY HARDWORK LEH!:D

haha so proud of myself!

anw after CCA went down to compass met the rest at sakae sushi.

had fun...

Thursday, July 30, 2009
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*taken during emaths remedial!had so much fun!!:D*

ate alot of rubbish in class!haha but FUN!

OMG!2 more weeks!

what cake should i get?

ah!i want a nice cake for my self!

OMG!!!!ytd was cake searching!and i saw this blog tt sells cupcakes!

OMG!!!!! it looks so delish!

YUMMY CAKES = HAPPY MELISSA!:D

Arent they just lovely?

i found them at http://missyphilia.blogspot.com/

Do patronize them!

i miss him so much!

im at a dilema!

lately everything sucks.

i feel it sucks to be me.

i wonder whats wrong with me.

im so emo at everything.

sometimes its wierd.

i always compare my current to my first love.

lately ive seen the city and whit said,"well its normal to compare i mean he;s ur first love,so hes like everything you picture him to be about"

sth like tt anw..

couldnt rmb the precise words..but still..

it really hit me and im comforting myself tt its ok to compare him.

but it just feels SO WRONG.

hes worried.idk!HOW?!it will be negative!

Damn!my internet keep cutting off!

hais.

ive been thinking alot bout tt us.

and idk what to do!its like theres no affirmation

and it just kills me to be at this state!

its making me so miserable!

idk what to do :'(

i oso dunno what to do bout tt!

how??fri?sat?

DAMN!

i hate this.

you guys are not helping!

it just makes me sad!:(

Tml is gonna be fels day :D

excited!

after CCA going over to meet them and *SECRET!*

Signing out,

bored-annoyed-sad--confused-laopok laoniang!

(so much,with love :] )

Btw:

/iwanna change my blogskin!

/gotta get used to changes!

/chiong on for CT3!!!!!!!!!!

/tts all,folks!:D

Wednesday, July 29, 2009
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Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed
nothing's the same

Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way
touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
(mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
(all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

We see what's up ahead
Why do we stay?
Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out
and there's no way in (no)
And it's so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
(mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes
(all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

The bond is breaking
and it's taking over my spirit
(quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted
have we drifted too far
apart now?

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
(Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)
Avalanche

Went back for oral just now.

was so happy tt i got to see him and spend time with him.

but wheres the talk?

anw went for school just now oral

it was easy.

though mr foo keep asking me like do you have any thing to add?

annoying~!

anw went home felt diff bout everything

its like wow vacation's over and its back to school

and its like im embracing it all.

its kinda cool.

spent some time with him thn he take a smoke.

its always like tt

but i like it like the moment when hes smoking thn i go lean into him and hes arms around me its like its a really nice cozy feeling :D

omg i cant believe how skinny he is and how fat i am -.-

i shall loose fats not loose weight for CNY soon!

its my new year resolution.

hahah my now new year resolution!

hahaha.

ANW tts for me to say and for you too well not say

lol.

he looks really skinny here.

this is tou pai de!haha.

thn gt sian so zilian bit.haha

oh did i mention he cut his hair shorter?haha

and he always porkupine it!

(my language for style it.like you knw chicken hair?make it spike)

yeah so its like funny.but i like it more thn his hair last time.

talking bout this, imh alr :'(

few days ago he ask me if i love him anod =.=

i said idk.lol.

no at first i gave the reason is im not ready

thn he asked why

so i said im not ready to say it because like when i say it i mean it.

and i cant mean say yet cus like you knw we just met on march thn like till now

its still like kinda short.

and plus i dont really knw much about him

its vice versa.

so i really cant say it cus i knw it cant be really define.

and all i can say is im attracted to him and fond yes like yes.

but not love.

thn straightaway after tt another fight =.="

icant rmb what we fought about though...

hmm...im getting old.

oh we happen to wear the same colour!figures huh.haha.

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Hello!

back to post.

man ytd wanted to go back school thn halfway got pain thn went to see doc

cus of my steamboat

haha

im so miserable

i have to like eat light stuff like plain porridge for a week!

can you imagine a week like tt

plus i cant eat meat :(

no chicken no pork

isnt it horrible!

urgh.

i just can die.

so didnt go to school today.

but i have oral so need to go back school in the afternoon

its almost been a week since ive been to school.

i miss it!

plus like i bet i missed alot of stuffs.

so i cleared the air with her ytd.

its like a burden being lifted.

i love and hate her.

its like sometimes you just adore someone but you just wanna kill them sometimes.

i mean literally but.

yeah.

anw erm..

lately my relationship's on the rocks.

im really tired of it.

i dont knw if im willing to end it.or just preservere.

like surely it has to go through some tough times to become stronger but its like

hes really getting onto my nerves

and hes so being overprotective its like theres no space anymore.

and like i want a guy who can like you knw be there but not so demanding and like not go overboard.

sometimes i just wish it never happened you knw.

like sometimes i just wish he'd get over it.

and like i really dont knw what hes thinking about and its really annoying.

its like sometimes its fine and the nxt its like woah snap!

im just really tired and idk what to do

thank goodness for my sick sick sick period tt i got like time to like think bout things and stuff.

ive nv been sick till like tt b4

first its like flu last week.

thn when im better sun i had gastric flu =.=

i thought it was food poisoning but it wasnt.

so after tt idk how it came down like it travelled down.

i would say it took the lift.cus it was quite fast.

it made me go poopy!

so became diarhoea.

omg you nv wanna have diarrhoea.

its the worst thing ever.

but im better now.

im gonna meet him like soon.

but its like hes late.

like we didnt say a time...but still?

its like im waiting for him damn long

i txted him at 10 and he replys at 11?

his time is so way off.

its like idk what hes doing you knw.

like i dunwanna knw

i just dont wanna have to question his every move.

its just tiring and idk.i guess im just confused.

well imma watch the city.

toodles.

Sunday, July 26, 2009
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Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends tonight
(Oh, oh, oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
(Fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?

I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
(Get your armor)
Get your armor

Why does love always feel like?
Why does love always feel like?
A battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for

This song is exactly how i feel right now.

i am so pissed at you.

i dont knw whats ur fucking problem

i feel so much outrage from ur sick little game.

it aint fun and i feel very angry at you.

how can you say all this.

you are being so unreasonable.

i dont understand you.

i dont understand why.

whats become of us?

you make me crazy wanna slap you.

i dont understand.

the feeling of hatred.thn feeling of uncertainty.

whats become of that?

how do i channel the negative?

by scolding you?

Fucktard day

cancelled tuition

postponed to tues =.=

thn mon got piano

so angry.

how could you treat me like tt.

came back from JB last night

ate breakfast at home

thn we had a family car wash activity!

haha it was fun.

thn tt thing =.=

make me fucking pissed.

dun feel like doing my hw.

i dun even knw what hw there is

ask veron oso she like dunno what she talking leh.

nvm anw die thn die lah

bought a new bag in JB

thought its abit pink -.=

well its the nicest

no choice my school bag wanna spoil le.

im kinda hungry now.

i guess all that negative channeling is making me hungry huh.

im feeling kinda sick now.

maybe its tt im hungry.

but i feel so cold and hot.

hmm hope im alright.

and i hope hes not. =.=

guys are fucktards like seriously.

Don't believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better than hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks, in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly

Having steamboat for dinner.

looking forward for that =.="

i dread going to school now.

i feel being torn in 3 ways..

Do you ever feel like you dont belong?

well i do now.

i feel like i dont belong anywhere.

if im here it eats me alive.

if im there my conscience guilts me.

if im over the other side id be crawling/running out the hill.

i hate this dilema...it sucks to be me.

i should go write a autobiography of my social life.