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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
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Current Song: True Friend
Currently: Cant watch TV :'(
Time: 12.40PM

This song makes me so sad and happy..
Sad because these aren't my true frens...
Happy because i nv thought some ppl treat me as their true frens

i feel so lucky to have them as my true frens
ILY gals + guys :)

Haha im gona do a summary of what happened this week...

Alot changed...Though i didnt knw why...

But it really saddens me....

Saved quite alot this month....If the amount were to be tripled,

I think i would have had enough for the iPhone alr..

Cassy sick got two days MC good lahs...TSK

Monday and tues after school me kellie and zilin

Went to compass played a few games

In particular, Truth without the Dare...

Haha....Shared alot of stuffs...

And if you missed it,too bad...

Everything said there and there will nv leave from our mouths

to anyone else...

Tuesday was a pissing day....

Raging with anger in the afternoon...

Went to Orchard then go Orchard Hotel for dinner...

Was quite fun but i mean still damn angry...

Angry till cry...I dont knw why though...

This morning had piano...

Learnt a new song...

Pachebel's Canon in D...

Super nice song...These few weeks...

Im not all into it for piano...

But i still wished i'd play it like a pro!

Its all elgant and stuff...

Though i dont think i am considered elegant...

Hahas...I never really told anyone this but i mean whats the harm?

I was totally into piano bcus i'd dream tht i played it damn nice so that

people will envy or appreciate the music of piano...

And of course i dreamed about playing it for Derek like forever...

But i never got that wish..I made that wish last birthday...

Today studied about of geog...

Read book and listen songs.....watched anime...

He talked to me in MSN today...

I feeel very bad now..

I mean i treated him damn cold...

When he asked me if i had missed him i said no...

I really hate it...I feel like a toy to him...

Like when he's happy he would play with the toy

and when he's not in the mood or busy he just discard it one side...

Not caring whether its sad or happy...

Or just wishing that he would give it some attension...

Thats actually all im asking for...

Its not like im asking him to elope with me to some other dimension or sth...

I mean....its not too much to ask for right?

I dont the answer..at all...

I just hurts so much...

But i think i did the right thing too...

He asked me if i still mean sth to him...

It really hit me you knw...

I just was damn sad....and idk wad to say...

I want to break free from this stupid misery....

I guess its harder said thn done...

Starting of tml....Which is the next month...

I'm gona start afresh and stop thinking of the past...

Its MAY!The Month of Possibilities!

Also....I bought a dress frm kellie..

The dresss is super nice...

FOR a gal with super nice figure and is a size 0!

I wore it make me look like a walking ball.

Haha...REaLLY!

Now really must jian le...

I hope by June i go down by at least 5kg!

-I really thought it was over...But you keep doing this to me...

Why?It never occured to you tt i want it to end?

I can't believe you're so heartless...I really wish it to end....But i dont want say it...I want you to end it...Because i dont want to end it..If i ever say it to you i guess i would live with regret.....

--Those words that came out from your mouth...All of us heard you..

It never occured to you that the one you said that were close to was hurt?

You vented your anger on me bcus sth i said those words that hurt her..

You were so protective of that person...It showed how much you care about her..How much you love her.

Yet now,you are the one that causes this misery and all the crap and nonsense....Has it never occured to you to let go?I dont understand you at all..You totally became another person after you met those bitch frens of yours.I really wish you just wake up and stop letting that person to be sad.I really cant forgive you for what you've done...Because to me, my friendship and kinship is everything to me..

---You say as if you gona die...Like everybody owes you a living...But its not like that...It just shows how spoilt you are...If you dont knw something, just ask an adult..They are wiser thn us....they have been thru more thn us.They could easily tell you right from wrong..And you are just being a mere hypocrite...Funny, since you ever said that you hate hypocrites...Turns out you are one of them too..And i also dont understand why you're acting all pityful like as if we are the ones at fault...I think its a fact that you havent changed one bit.

Coming up in the month :

SHOPPING AT VIVO+BUGIS,

BOY-FEST!

PLAYING A WHOLE LOT MORE!

Current Song: None

Currently: Watching TVBJ, interviewing rain...He looks horrible with the new do.

Time: 8.41PM

Monday, April 21, 2008
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Current Song: None
Currently Watching: Watching Ch U news..mumm lah!iwanna watch the 9o clock shw!
Time: 9.11PM

OMG!ITS 4 DAYS TO SA1?!
I didnt even realise...i like havent even started studying can...
I've done geog notes, physics notes, SS notes but didnt went into my brain!
Haha It's so true!my blog is dead and growing spiderwebs!Courtesy quote from dearest.
haha the weekend was fun!felt like a super long weekend but it was actually kind of short lived.
Ok so here it goes:
SATURDAY!:
Morning like took 113 bus to near swimming pool there...
Two stops nia haha...While walking to stadium saw this auntie keep looking at me thn smile..
Thn i like wad the hell...this auntie something wrong sia...
But the more i look at her the more familiar she seems...
Thn it suddenly occured to me that it was ZT's mum...haha
so farnie...so i just smiled back?
Wierd mans!
Met veron outside Stadium...went in waited for Dearest.
Thn we were like looking at the other classes running...
That morning's breezes was SO FINE!
didnt really feel like running..but kinda excited..
Last year i failed my 2.4 haha...
Although i came in 73 im so glad i passed!Haha
Thn veron and elaine came in top 20 lahs...(jealous jealous)
But sinc i hardly did any practice runs im surprised i passed...
after running felt so refreshed!walked all the way to hougang mall
But by 3PM i feel like its bedtme but its only 3!!
I went book hunting oso!!
Went to orchard..Borders first..
Bought 3 books for 30 or 40 bucks...
Thn went to kino bought like 10 books...cost bout 135...
Im so gona chiong read!
I feel like i can write any topic the paper asks for eng...
you knw like essay writing?Oh and all is WITH DISCOUNT~!
Now im like members of 3 or 4 major bookstores?!
haha insane rite?Bookworm!
First time bought SO MANY books in 1HOUR!
on the way from borders and kino gt showcase for Apple stuff.
Thn this salesgirl approached us....thn she show us how to use the iTouch!
I so want it now!actually i want the iphone!
But its sadly not out in SG :( must order from States..
And ship here...But its so EX!and i think its more worth having the iphone thn the itouch!
Advice anyone?!
Sunday:
Feeling sick!Whole body feel like gona crumble but i feel good...
haha like could hardly move lahs..
Suppose to study the whole day but i keep get stuck to reading books?!
In the end i had my half done homework...
Ate very berry and cookies and cream ice cream!!
Omg feel like eating it now again!
But i regret eating!!so FATTENING?!
OH ya!
i told my parents i was thinking of not like having a party for my bdae this year...
im like having head spins cus of thinking wad to do for my bdae...
I dun wan repeats...so boring..some more..
No nice cakes...
Maybe ill jus plan a gathering like in holidays or sth to make up for myself?haha
it has the word SPOILT written all over it!
Saw a movie last nite...There was a guy named D....
Aiya you knw...Felt abit heart pain...but still really not my feelings...
Im so happy i can finally break free...
Maybe its time to go on a boyfast!
like real...But i wanna concentrate on SA1 first...
After tt im free to do whatever i want!
Suddenly missing my dear frens rite now... :(
MONDAY:
Had so much fun today!its one of the most enjoyable days in school!
Dont knw how to explain...aiya but nvm!but i did quarrel with tay chew fen today...hahas..
went straight home after school...had fun during piano lesson...but felt so dead!
Well when i got time thn blog again bahs!Kisses!

Note: Having blog makeover takeover after SA1 during midmay or june bahs..
Btw, thinking of opening a blogshop!anyone interested pls tell me ASAP!I'll consider if i wanna work with you.
P.S Theres a stalker stalking me!HELP!

Currently: NO song
Currently watching: 9 o clock show!
Time: 9.52PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008
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Current Song: None
Currently Watching: Idk...mummy changing channels
Time:8.56PM

FRIDAY:
Ok so currently im saving $$ for my red PSP.
And i need someone to handle my cash for me...
Cus i will spend it.Who wants to help?Help!
Oh and im officially failing AMaths...I like got 22/50.
CT3 coming in less thn 2 weeks i guess!so scared!
Haha Oh and theres a new couple in the class recently.
Guess :
1st couple: V _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ + G_ _ _ _
2nd couple: S _ _ _ _ _ _ _ + (Forgot her name)
Haha aiya class ppl will knw lahs..
Anyway...Went recess with Jaq and Jess haha...
Was quite fun...Talked alot.
They having a slpover...haha
Im lending them disc...Sadly i cant stay over...

SATURDAY:
This morning woke up for oral..
Oral was ok...Quite fun...
It was about the cleanliness of singapore...
After tt went home with Jaq and Jess..
We took the train!!
Went taka in the afternoon...
Ate tako yaki!Ate some jap food too!
Thn walked to centre pt POSB.
Wanted to open back acc..But found out i already had one!
So mummy applied an ATM CARD FOR ME :)
Went to eat pengkang fish and fish soup steamboat for dinner!
but it wasnt really nice cus we were just trying..
It was a tampines...
Passed by his hse though.
Passed by tamasek poly oso.
My heart totally sank.
Felt so sad..That place felt so different now..
Anyway..Its his and my loss.

If I vow to trust u no matter how jealous i get.i vow to tell u wad i feel without waiting 4 u to ask.i vow to nv let u go again, will you come back?

Wednesday, April 9, 2008
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Current song: None (MTV's on interval)
Currently: Watching MTV Six Pack!
Time : 6.17PM

Ok i got to go chinese sinseh now...My back there hurts..
Yea so im gona do a short one..
Saw my "darling"today :)
Went to Rm with veron and elaine aftr school...
Ate malay store for recess!Super nice!
Bought minnie mouse balloon for veron...
Ok got to go.!

I wish everything is the way it was.If i had a time machine,
Id make it right again..

Time: 6.22PM

Sunday, April 6, 2008
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Current Song: None
Currently: Watching TV,MSN-ing,Blogging
Time: 11.52PM

Havent been bloggng these few days.
So ill just write a summary..

Friday:
It was ok...AMaths was a blast!
Chinese was no so bad...I really enjoyed it!
Then recesss...They didnt eat recess got held back or sth..
So ate quite alone bahs..

After recess was English..Ok lahs..After Eng is Emaths..
Ok oso lahs...thn went to cp with veron buy pen and stuff..
Went home with Kellie...Took bus..
Talked about lots of stuff haha..

I told kellie i dreamt about him..
It wasnt a good one though..
I dreamed tt He txted me saying tt he didnt love me at all..
Tt it was actually a dare to like go out with me or sth..
Thn kellie laughed so lame..TSK..

Saturday:
Sianish day...Went out but cant rmb where...
Watched The House with ah ma and ah gong and daddy and mummy.
Thn stayed out eat dinner...Watched Red Dragon...Super erxin!!
Slp like 1am with mummy and daddy :)

Sunday:
Went to eat breakfast...
Today super hot weather..
Suppose to go open back acc...
And go cycling and go pasir ris book chalet...
But hot weather...dunno bout later but going out again..

I really miss the old times..I dunno what came over me..
I guesss i was being selfish..I want to take it back...
But even if i did,it wont be the same.Its no use crying over spilt milk.

Thursday, April 3, 2008
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Picture: None

Current song: None
Currently: Busy,Watching the Vat Show!
Time: 9.24PM

Today was a sianish day...
So slpy ask me wake up so early..
Watched Stomp the Yard last night..
Till like 10.30PM thn slpt.

This morning woke up felt like slping in..
So sian lah..Go school...Went to school felt like a dead zombie.
Wait zombies are already dead...Haha
Ok the mummified zombies!!
No!Posessed mummified zombies!!
HAHAHA...Sian lahs..

First period was SS...Quite fun..
Did the laptop thing..The lappy super cool
The screen can like turn one..Hahas..
After SS was Cheena..
Kenasai Cheena..
See the chena teacher face feel like vomiting..

After Cheena is Eng...
Eng like keep txting lahs..
Thn was recess..Cecilia like damn farnie lahs..
They like teach her all the hokkien vulgars and all tt..
So farnie!

After recess was Emaths..Ms Tan today scold all of us
She was like seriously damn pissed..
What she said to all of us made an impact on me..
The things she said are so true tt you cant deny it even one bit..
She said she wanted all of us,all 24 of us to stay in this class till we graduate..
I hope we fulfill her wish..

So we were late for AMaths lesson..
Got punished by standing outside the window there..
It was fucking hot..
And like cannt even see the words tt she wrote on the board lahs..
After one period thn she ask us go in and stand behind..
Worse oso..So difficult to write..Thn she left early..
But we got work to do..
After tt was geog..Must do some ws thing..

After school 2.45PM got AMaths test..
Totally didnt study..
I think i gonna fail lahs.I alot of them like dunno how to do
Its like i cannt think properly..

After tt walked home..Felt so far away..
Thn came home..Cas cas was here...
Tsk he go slp my bed sia..Tsk
Thn i play audi..Thn he go home play tgt..
Cheryl darlinqq was online too..
So we played NPC thn cheryl darlinqq had to go :(
Thn Cas cas went too..
So just play lorhs...Thn sian liao nv play..
Had dinner with mother and daddy..
Watched Happy Feet!

Oh saw moquito on the way home..
He dressed all black..
And he was carrying his laptop..New de..
Sian lahs..Dont feel like going school tml..
Tired le..Going to slp..

TOnight Karina and her mother is going back to australia..
Mummy ask me to go but i dunwan..I stayed home..
I hate saying goodbye..
Even if i dun say goodbye ill still miss her like fuck
The next time im gona see her is next year...
Probably..

"He online..I toked to him in msn..But he nv reply.
I guess he doesnt want me anymore?
Or im just some girl tt he played.."

Currentl Song: None
Currently: Very tired
Time: 10.11PM

-My com i think kena virus..

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
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Current Song: Sorry

Current Mood: Pissed

Time: 4.57PM

Today went to school early with Zilin and Veron & Elaine & Kellie..

Turns out im the first to come..

Thn txt Elaine to find out where is she..She was at home..

So Veron,Zilin and me went in first..

Shortly after Elaine came..

Soon after it was time to go to the hall for assembly..

Got chased by Mr Lim and Mr Sim..

Thn we walk to the toilet..

Mr Lim ask us where we going thn Zilin said..

"Going toilet..You want to come?"

Haha so lame lahs..We all laugh sia..

Had a Fashion Show during assembly.

Nadrah was super sexy!

First period was SS..ok lahs..Played with Vanessa..

Thn was Physics...Super sian..

He ask us to do WrkBk..But i didnt..

I took the time to write letter for Zilin and Veron...

After tt was recess..Thn ate malay food..

Veron almost sprained her ankle..

Elaine went with Judi today..

After recess was Emaths..

Had classtest...Was quite hard..

After EMaths was Eng..Went to Eng thn like slack..

They did the marking for the compre...

I was smsing Cassy and others..

Thn Cassy told me tt Zilin was crying..

So i txt Zilin why she cry

but she just said no lah..Some sad stuff...

After Eng..Was Bio..Ms Koh took us..

Played with Elaine..Played with Vanessa..

Made her damn pissed...hahas...

After Bio went down to GO to meet Veron and Zilin they all

Waited damn long...Thn Zilin came down..

She talked mostly to Veron and Elaine..

Thn me Cassy and Kellie + Crisna like talk lahs..

Went to play piano cus damn sian..Thn Veron told me Zilin crying..

Thn i went to sit nxt to Veron ask her What happen..

But she say she dunno..Thn when i sit there they stopped talking...

so ok lorh..

Thn i go sit with Cassy they all..Thn Cassy felt hungry..

So we went canteen..Talked alot..We all were like feeling pissed..

After tt went back..They left us a note saying they went to RM..

Because they felt hungry..

I felt pissed..I mean wad about me?Thn ok lorh fine..Thn called Veron..

Supposed to go eat koban and buy pen at Popular...

But they went with Zilin to Rm and

thn nv invite me so ok lorh..I went home feeling left out and pissed..

Took bus 88 wait damn long..And the heat was killing me..

Reached home..watch tv..Drank my Bacardi..to let off some steam..

Feeling abit mabok now...

Alot of things went through my head when i walked home..

I dont understand you..Its like we all care about you...

But you shut us out..Your heart only wants her.

Its ok though..But what about us?Think about it..

But if you need me i will be there for you...

We just dont want you to get hurt again.

"Maybe I dont mean as much as i do compared to her.

But to me,it doesnt matter.As long as you are happy..

But im tired of thinking you are my best friend..

When you already have her in your heart and can accept no others..

Maybe what im saying doesnt mean anything to you anymore..

But it doesnt matter...

Cause i dun wanna continue this kind of so called "friends" relationship anymore

if you dont wanna appreciate all the things that we have done for you."

Feeling sad right now..Still drinking my bacardi..

All we want is for you to be happy.

Thought about him & him today..
I thought about ytd..He was online ytd night..

I never felt so alone and kicked one side in my entire life..

I never thought this would happen again..Its the same reason why

it happened before.I'm very dissappointed.

I think i'll remain single..I really dun wanna get hurt again..

The feeling sucks..Its like an invisible knife cutting my heart

and the worse part is it doesnt have a cure.

I kept the promise..You broke it.

Current Song: Low

Current Mood: Mabok and sad

Time: 5.38PM

Tuesday, April 1, 2008
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Currently: Feeling cold
Current Song: Whine Up
Current mood: Sad & Scared
Time: 4.38PM

Very bad mood when i came to school.I oso dunno why..Probably mood swing bahs..
Daddy overslpt.I waited till 7.17AM he haven come down..so i called him he was still slping i think..haha..But he sounded dead on the phone..By the time i was in the car it was 7.20AM++ i very scared i late eh..Thn i feel like slping some more..So tired..i oso overslpt today..Slp till like 7 thn susanti wake me up.Shiok lah if can slp and dun go skul..I wish everyday our school start at 8.30AM lahs..

Today first period is geog..Haha today damn blur lahs...i thought first period is SS so i walk up thn elaine they all like where you going..haha..Thn went Geog...Mrs Soon took a long time to come..Thn we had a pop quiz!Pop quiz in groups of 4 but we had 23 ppl..Haha because GERMS didnt come to school today.So WE THREE was in a group..Me,Elaine & Veron..Haha we always play play play..Thn end up we got the highest score..Walau damn wad sia..The pop quiz was tested on floodplains,deltas and sth else.forgot.Haha old liaos..Must pardon me..Haha..Deltas keep coming out so wad..I tot wah..Deltas no more le can relax..Thn it keep coming up can!Tsk..

After Geog is P.E.Today one was ok..Haha..Stupid lahs..Sweat alot..Thn went all the way down to geog cus marie left the register there..Walked all the way to lvl 4 almost died!After maths was chinese..Ok lah today..Haha but make elaine damn irritated...

Recess!Quite ok lah..Stupid councellor pull my blouse ask me put my plate back.TSK go away lah bitch..Your mother nv tell you not to anyhow molest ppl arh.After recess Eng..Read newspapers..Thn SS...Sian lahs..Copy answer until my hand pain pain sia..Thn the sex talk..so wad can..Thn Veron siao lorh..She so hyper thn suddenly sit on the floor so emo..Took the time to write letter to Veron and Zilin..Thn went assembly..After school walked to CP with zilin,kellie,cassy,veron...Today Cassy and me talked alot..Zilin and Veron walk tgt..Dunno wad they talking about..I dunno lah..They acting damn wierd just now..Thn i left early cus i got tuition..Turns out my tuition is tml..Haha..Thn cassy keep laughing at me...so bad lorh..Ppl really dunno thn she luff..TSK.

Jon jon was at home..so we play PSP..Thn went online..Talked to mosquitio alot..WAtched some videos with jonjon..About there lahs..I grow a very big pimple today..Oh and alot of ppl wrote me notes today :))))) APPRECIATED!

Added him on frenster :))) Havent drank my bacardi yet...Thought about him today..It left a scar on my heart.

Time: 6.01PM

Current Song : Sorry

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