Omg im damn sad lah.

I didnt even realise i like him this much

because im totally bothered by it.

Like i cant stop thinking bout it

i cant stop thinking bout him

and i realise i have this stupid problem

tt i cant let go.

tt time the derek thing oso like tt

and he cant let go either

so it dragged.

And i realise tt night wasnt ideal but thn

it was one of the sweetest thing ever.

And like idk i feel like lost.

You knw.like omg lah

how old is he.why are you getting engaged.

And like many questions cross my mind.

like if we're tgt why cant you just you knw back out of the engagement?

Ok maybe it may not be hard or impossible because you're like a diff culture

but you just like you knw i feel like im the second choice

and if you really like me thn i think you should like at least make an effort or sth

idk lahs.i keep checking my phone to see if he reply me

After tt day he told me bout the engagement

thn i was so sad and shock and confused

like what about me?its like all you can say is tt you feel guilty and you're sry

and like we like nv really txt and its so sad

cus i always text him and its like idk you're not even there for me as a fren

you knw i should have made myself clear

i shouldve said no.

because i thought it b4 tt if you ask me for stead i would say no

because i dont want to loose you as a friend

and it really happened

omg its like laws of attraction.

aiya fuck it,

sad but have to move on rite

this cheston keep bugging me.tsk

tml got geog test wish me luck

today whole day thinking of him.

had ss test

sure fail

the whole time i thinking of him

hais.

i miss him like fuck.

after ss started to rain

and i had this bright idea tt i take bus to elaine's bus stop thn take 86 to compass

thn take train

thn they say im smart

YES :)

hahaha

yea so did tt went with veron

thn went home

and i bought peach green tea!!:)

ok gtg ready.