now i think back.maybe i was just stupid and foolish.

but everything happens for a reason.

if we cant bridge our fights means we arent strong enough perhaps.

if we overcome tt hurdle in front of us many things arisen more

so is our relationship really tt strong?

u really thought you cared but in the end you are the same as everyone else.

oh btw im so sorry for attituting you.

it was my bad that i treated you badly.

and i wish i could take it all back

but i knw its impossible.

i just want to let you knw tt im sry.

even if we are frens or become frens again i dont knw if i can take it.

bcause its really tt painful.

for now id rather have a clean break and forget bout everything

because of you i had a really bad day

and many things happen

i dont wanna loose my frenships over you.

so if i said sth i shouldnt im sry.

you knw everything seem fine in the first place.

so why does it seem that everything is so wildly out of place in the nxt moment?

i wanna stop time and rewind all the things tt i regret having in life

you may think tt wow tt girl is so lucky to have this and tt

but you dont knw many things about me

i dun bother bout it but its been creeping back to me more lately.

i really wish i could rewind time

and if only i was born stronger thn i could have stop you from making my life this way

but i also have to thnk you for making me stronger

because if not been for you

i wouldnt be where i am right now

in this pethetic state crying the fuck out.

actually i think tt crying is pointless.

the last time i cried was ytd.

somehow everyone seems to be pointing towards me.

i was so in the wtf mood.

anyway i really got to thnk tt one person who was there with me throughout

so thnks alot.

now i really hope we can stay frens

because i knw you are a good fren.and i really dont want to lose you too.

somehow everyone seems to be going their own way

what happened to the old me?

i miss that person

i realised ive changed to someone who's been talking crap for decades

you knw everything started from you.which was what years ago.

if it hadnt start from you all this wouldnt happen

if it wasnt for you i wouldntbe what i am today

but its also because of you tt destroyed me without tt special thing other girls have.

i hate you i love you i dislike you i like you

you are a love hate thing for me

you make me hate you for being a jerk but you make me love u for feeling so special 

so whats the verdict?idk too.

anw i dont want to think bout you or hear from you anymore

cus the love's too deep.

you make me think of you every single day

every freee time i have

even b4 i slp i dream of you.

i just cant stop thinking bout u

but all that is going to change.

since we are no longer frens tt makes things easier

im gonna take things one step at a time.

Today was a damn tiring day

i slpt at 12 plus last nite

cus i was up reading a stupid book bout love.

i think love is abit too farfetch for me now

maybe i should slow things down a little

you knw i realise tt guys are jerks.

seriously.not one in all the guys i knw are real gentlemen

and i was foolish again and again to give you chances to explain

ok i said im gonna stop toking bout this rite

so i should stop

yeas.

today was actually quite a better day for me

it wasnt as bad as ytd

now i have to think of this fucking problem

how to get tt money b4 friday

dont knw whether if im gona rob or steal

but still..

i really need tt money?!

its not even enough what i have now.

how??today i really laughed hard and enjoy myself.

i knw nowadays ive been keeping things to myself

but i feel tt i dun have a close fren cus everyone has their like close fren and you knw their own thing

and i really miss the old times.

shit friday is depressing me

not enough money.thn i still stupid stupid call alot of ppl come

this is a bad idea

maybe i should postpone it or sth

but im really excited for it

hais

life sucks now,

ive still got hw to do and im dead beat.

heck lahs.i wanna go slp and be in my own world

and crawl into my own hole of shame.

so leave me alone.its my emo-ing time.