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Thursday, May 7, 2009
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So this post is going to be shorter thn i expected it to be because...

sry but i totally dont rmb what i did for the last past days

im GETIING OLD?!

No WTF IM ALREADY OLD?!

=.= i shall go to a depressed corner after tt.

ok so scenario in school was so diff from ytd

firstly,i wasnt the first to bao in front of sister.

someone broke the record! DING DING DING!

So ok thn ytd we had the chinese paper and everyone was talking before the paper

but today is SS and Emaths totally everyone was studying

not much ppl talking

wow tts a shocker =.=

Haha so yea SS was like wow heng ah

i totally didnt screw up my paper which i thought i would

cus haha i DID NOT STUDY AT ALL

did you knw tt ytd i was still using com and watching movies online

only when i got tired thn i force myself to read the txtbook.

i read abit of sec 3 book which the first chap already bore me

so i closed the book and opened sec 4

i can tell you the newest topic will come out because its this years topic and she havent tested on this yet

so it did come out which is a relief as i studied the notes we COPIED

ok i shall not say study its an understatement

i shall say READ

haha so yea thn last night during my bedtime

like 10 plus?i read the sec 4 book on the terrorist and all

thn read the transportation shit and all

thn i went to slp at 11?!

cus i was tired!:D

How smart

anw i was already prepared to fail

who knew i could rmb?Coolio.

haha

can you imagine if i really study?

oh but tts impossible.

HAHA im just TOO LAZY

thn had emaths paper

i was trying to rmb all the formulas and all

in the end it didnt came out much -.=

i thought the paper was abit hard

i couldnt solve one question so i left it black

which costed me 4 marks

other thn tt,its an OK!:D

after the paper i was SO BRAIN FRIED

AND SO SO SO SO HUNGRY!

after papers went to RM

and veron ate her Long John

was damn hungry

i as per normal kope some XD Hehe.

yepp but i was still damn damn hungry and I WAS BROKE

see this is the worst thing about being broke.

i hate it

and i notice i spend alot of FOOD!O.O

i feel the FATNESS COMING SOON.

anw gotta spend money again tml

HAIS.

gotta to buy my solution for my colour contacts.

walau i kena cheated

uncle say take green.

no diff.should have taken blue.TSK

after today i felt a relieve?!

its like wah i cant imgaine going thru SS was a breeze.

thn its like 4 papers down le?!

AH!~?

cant wait to tear and throw away my timetable for exam haahhaha

Its like the BURDEN IS GONE?!

and i cant wait to go malaysia and have friday outing here.

ah!?its like the mark of the start of a carefree life AGAIN!?AH!haha

after RM walked to the bus stop ALONE.

fucking hot some more

good thing got trees to shade me

HAHA if not i faint le lors?!

but thn still.it was like so FAR AWAY

after tt went home

thn zilin came

kellie went home

i was so hungry.

zilin open up mushroom can and make mushroom soup for me

SO SWT RITE!HAHAHA

thn i chop chop the mushroom haha

wow i drank it all.

SO SHIOK.

i put alot of mushrooms :D

i think i eat until scared liao HAHAH

so yea thn after tt talk and all

thn zilin wenthome at 5 plus.

use com and all.

tts bout it.

Ok so this was what i wanted to post ytd but i was too lazy and i was preoccupied to my oblivious ignoration of studying SS

haha

so here it goes.

I feel stupid and useless.

now i think back actually jacq scolded me right.

when i was lying on my bed waiting for my parents to eat dinner tgt,

i started thinking about him and i really started to miss him and all.

thn i questioned myself,"what is it tt i miss about him?"

and i really dont knw that answer to be honest.

and at tt moment i was so confused.

and i feel really useless and stupid and idk how to explain it

and wtf can you actually believe tt i cried for him

ok it was not really a cry thing

its more like tears dripping down my cheeks kind of thing.

but you knw what i realised?

i realised tt we're not even tgt.

so why is it tt i seem to care SO MUCH?

i think back on the horrible "date"

and i realised tt he didnt even bother to introduce me to his frens

and i dont knw a shit about him.

i dont knw what colours he like,

i dont knw who's his best fren

god,i feel like such an idiot

can you tell me why this kinda thing keeps happening again and again and again

actually i dont even knw what i want if i speak up

and its unlike me to say sth unless i am sure about my info and like what i want and stuff

because i think its unesscessary to say sth if you dont knw what you want.

like an aim for sth

tts why ppl give speeches =.=

anw,and all the more,

what can i say?

idk what to expect,what to say,

and im afraid of the outcome.

i dont even knw how to start this up!

i dont want to "loose" him at all.

its just tt i dont want to be feeling like this anymore.

and this is not a problem you can solve overnight.

could it be tt we have been too fast?

idk you knw.

but i just knw tt if i dont say this on friday

its going to bug me on my holiday.

but i dont knw if i can really do it anod.

and im so gona like break down i swear

its not my thing to cry and its getting me so emo =.=

its totally bugging me like siao.

and i totally dont wanna cry in front of him?!

like wtf.wait he thinks im some girl whos a crybaby and what fuck

though its kinda tempting me to try if i cry like whats his reaction gonna be like

oh but cant im wearing make up tt day

and if i cry im so gonna look like a total mess!?

HELP!

SOS

Can anybody help me?

Today when we were studying for emaths

i wanted to tell them

but i decided not to cus i scared i cant concentrate during maths paper

and we'd loose our time to study and all.

I really wanna talk about it and im just scared.

idk i cant talk to like my parents bout this

well cus im not allowed to date.

and it seems tt no one can help me :(

this is so depressing.

idk how im going to react when i meet him again

i hope everything is going to be alright

because tts all that matters....

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