thn go slp again and wake up again and slp again

and wake up again till 9 plus thn get out..

ate breakfast left hse go tuition

fucking hot weather today.

came home.

in the end still got tuition ones.

marcus korkor the pretty boy is going to teach me again haha

oh and he is going to like give tuition

so if anyone wants emaths tutor let me knW!

he's not bad!

so came home bathed and everything

now blogging.

i very regret.

idk bout the zippo lehs..

like i veh scared he dun like

anw im kinda depressed now.

just now told mummy bout my results.

she made me feel so like dissapointed and so like..guilty and stuff.

its so annoying how im always will be dissapointing you  in the end,

maybe i should just dissapoint you all the way even more,

its even better to give you no hope thn when you only pray for tt gimmer of hope.

i think it aint worth it.

anw...yea totally got to motivation to study.

now got. 

i wanna beat her..

i lost to her in 3 subjects.

not literally beat lahs.

as in get higher thn HER.URGH!

 i shall go cry to darling now :( 

she's def gonna scold me like crazy.

going airport soon!flying!BYE :D

add on:

went to eat waraku de pasta

damn nice.

after tt went to east coast to cycle.

cycle like mad

and as i was wearing skirt

went to the flea market to buy some board shorts.

and wear to cycle

so i got a new shorts!WHOO :D

As i was in the car..

i was emo ing

i was totally emo ing.

i thought about alot of stuff.

about how i really wanted to do well.

i knw im always the dissapointment.

but i am not perfect.

no one is perfectt

i knw i have not tried my best.

but i really did try.

at least i tried.

and i knw

if i really studied.

i could have done well.

but i didnt.

and i dont wanna be like tt anymore.

just passing isnt gonna get me anywhere.

you are right.

i knw you all care bout me

but im really tired..of studying

like theres no motivation to study

its like everyone's pushing me

but i dont want to move.

im reluctant to move.

thn after tt i rmb what he said to me..

and suddenly i just miss him so much even more

its been 10 days since we last met

and every conversation we had in tt 10 days was nv long.

somehow i feel that theres a bridge building alr.

since mid years are over.

im allowed to think!hees :D

but yea anw..

its really killing me

the other day went out with mei mei yiyi

she said.

guys rite

if guys really like you.

you reach home ready call you liao.

and no matter what still will pay for you and like make time and do things for you without complaint.

i wonder when will i get tt kinda guy.

seriously to be honest.

all guys ive dated is always the one hurting me or betraying me or backstab me in the back.

ive never ever met this kind of guy b4

ok maybe i have.

but not interested kind

yeas...if only mine came knocking on the door.

even susanti said the same thing..

even daddy says the same thing

though its kinda utterly ridiculous.

but his point,which is

"what is his is mine and what is mine is mine"

is really true.

he say even before marriage or get tgt ready must like tt

but it isnt.

so i havent found THE guy...YET

how i wish he could be like tt.

but he isnt.

maybe i should widen my circle more =.=

i really wonder.

i was imagining his face when i ask him to close his eyes and surprise him

thn i think think think..

if im not allowed to shop..

thn how can i give him stuff.

and what if he doesnt like the zippo?

what about the jacket?

what about the keychain?

i mean

shoudnt the guy be the first to give first?

so im kinda confuse to give or not..

hais...

and i dunwanna like...be the first to give

cus i wanna knw how he is like to me

i mean you knw...

once you give gifts...its like u surrender liao =.="

anw its stupid.

so means im stupid.

and yes i totally AGREE

how annoying it is,i have to agree.

so i only decided to give him the zippo.

i dont even care if he likes it or not.

im fussing my brain cells over this dumb issue =.="