Woke up like super early today.and theres no school!

Went to "work" with mummy and daddy.

had breakfast with them

thn went to lavender to get my new passport!

its kinda cool

cus its the new high tech thing.

but i prefer the old one

now the passport number and ur ic number is diff

which is kinda dumb.

so ive to like rmb new number -.-

anw...

went with ah ma oso.

supp to go visit ah zhor at serangoon but apparently no one picked up the phone.

so we went to buy otah.

after tt came home

and surprisingly my cousin came my hse for no apparent reason.

now hes like watching fast and furious on dvd.just bought it from malaysia last weekend.

bought alot of discs but havent watched it yet.

recently ive been thinking alot of everything i have and dont wanna have right now.

some things just bugs me some things make me comforting.

some things make me happy yet sad.its one of those bitter sweet moments.

but what i realise is i dont wanna be left behind.

so ive determined to work really hard nxt year.

i really wanna get good grades and get into a good poly for the course i want.

ive yet to decide what i what though

sometimes i wonder how ppl knw that that is the path that they wanna take?

how do you knw tts the thing you wanna have for the rest of ur life?

im afraid.

afraid of loosing the time and wasting my life away to having known that it isnt the path i wanna take.

im afraid of loosing ppl along the way.

ive lost some and win some.but its never gonna really be the same after this year onwards.

this year i did really really badly.

i totally dont have anything subjects that have a B3 or above at all.

thats what freaks me,

at least im grateful tt i have the chance for another year.

anw.....good news is tmr is the day the LEE MIN HO IS COMING TO SG!

im utterly excited!and i was hoping the promotion thing is still on for today

cus im going over to stude hse to get me some scratch cards.

i only have 16 bucks.

so its only enough for one.

not sure if lady luck is smiling on me today though.

i really wanna go there!

hes like autographing for 100 fans!

im so excited.

itd be a pity to not go there.

anw...hopefully i wont get squeeshed!

hot si le!

anw....moving on....but after the good news is the bad news...

Monday's O's IM SO NOT READY

so is maths paper

im totally not in the mood right now.

but im afraid.

my mother says that its definitesly hard to get an A and that we'll def be retaking nxt year.

which means we'll see the fucking nun's face more often thn you'd imagine.

which kinda sucked.

i was hoping id get an A thn i would be able to just do the other subjects

i wasnt pinning for chinese though

if i get a B3 id be alr over the moon.but i doubt tt would happen.

Anw i should stop soon.

as least now my blog's not dead huh.

dont knw if my loyal reader has moven on to another blog reading alr.

bet its boring to keep reading those big red words.

times have changed now.

people changed.

so have i.

ive got to admit.

im no longer the same.

cus suddenly,im aware of everything around me

every person's character.

its kinda sickening to say though that they aint pretty.

Id like to think the world is perfect and people are nice.

But the fact is,in reality.

NO ONE IS EVER NICE.

they just wanna be friends with you and stab you in the back when you walk away.

Seems like conficts are all around you knw?

sometimes i feel like there isnt anyone to trust.

thn now trust becomes an issue because you no longer knw what to believe or do anymore.

There are many questions in life that im figuring out right now.

and no one can answer them.

only i can answer them

and its making me wanna throw things on the wall.

i knw....anger management

my temper is getting like flared up these few days.

its like everything makes my day go bad.

and the worse thing is?

ive got no one to talk to.

oh you'd think id talk to idk a guy whose supp to be there for you.

or someone close to me?

but the fact is actually ive no one i consider close right now.

and im glad its like that.

cus you knw...i realise i like the peace

yeah its kinda quiet but ill make do

and the best part?

NO DRAMA.

there used to be so much gossip and drama going on.

yeah there are but i choose to ignore it,

cus its stupid.

but its one drama that really got me thinking is that.

if she went through all that.and she told me bout it means she trust me that much

though we're not that close compared to her close friends.

but why me?

and i knw ive been through lots of shit before.

but her shit was way like idk a tv show or movie.

and it was real shit.its like worse thn mine and it was way harder.

and i knw how it felt.

which makes me sad cus theres nth i can do to make her feel better.

gotta go.

BTW NEVER EVER GO SHOPPING WITH A GUY!